This is halloween

I just came home from a party of my life, even though I didnt party that much myself…
31st of October, that means Halloween!
Yeah so Leon and I went out to BLÅ at Viper Room last evening, it was one hell of a ride!
My sister painted me so I looked like a ghost/ sexy asian with make up^^

Though I have done worse…full drag you remember!!??

Too make a long story short, we drank a fuck lot of beer and cider, just enough to get our buzz on…our fuck on.
We mingled wioth some hot girls, even though, yes Leon is a wimp for not wanting to dance but yeah we got our fuck on…
Damn, that lucky bastard though…he got lucky…
I dont know how many pics I took with random people…girls that is, I suppose I will see later this evening on the clubpix what a fool I made of myself…,
But I do remember talking to one woman who works there, telling her she was beautiful…, well because she was…I wont deny that.
I asked her first about who to speak to about membership cards, while I was checking her out…and as a thank you for my eyes and her time, I said she was hot.
Manwhore alert, someone send me out to sea! Choo Choo!
Too bad I am and was drunk…such things can really ruin your image, atleast she was flattered because I used such soft tone of voice and gentlemanish chosen words( not well chosen words here but yeah)
-British accent FTW!

It was a very good night, yes!

Too bad Gaybriel couldnt join us this evening, it would have been fun had he been with us…

What single thing can ruin my night?????????
yes, wehn I get home, my sisters MSN is still running…and I see my ex is ONLINE…
I want to say in my honest to BUDDHA words…fuck you bitch, I hate you so much…you have ruined my life and I hope you are happy, you fucking whore!
I deleted her immedietly…

Still though…it is fun to be able to go out at such an occasion… I really needed this!
it has been just about a year..I am still single, still sad, still loenly, not broke but broken hearted and lost in my own guilt, fear, hatred and sorrow.
I feel like a whore too, going out like this, having fun because it reminds me of the whore herself and her whore ways…too what depth have I sunk???

But it is true though, what Leon said; we must have fun now that we are young…we wont have that freedom later.
Simple, but true…yet why do I feel such guilt for loosening up?

BITCH!!!!

So this is halloween…my fears, me joy…they all elude me.

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