The Truth about Everything

I have been asked why I write all these horrible things on my blog, why I write about consenting to murder, misogynity and other moral and ethically questionable material.
Why dont I go blabbering about this IRL?
Partly because I have no interest of medling my personal private views in the everyday life, that is the way of the whining, stuck up attention whore, and partly because there is a thing called respect; and though I may be a very angry and satanic fuck here inside my own domain, there are basic social laws that abide all people.

I use this blog as a sort of personal record, and a way to release myself of all my daily aggrevation.
There is so much hatred, anger and rage in this world already; why should I contribute to it all by being a disrepectful sonofabitch to my fellow friends and everybody else?
No,  respect is what one must face and understand in the presence of others, no matter how much you might hate a person or dislike a situation, if you act like a fucking ass all the time; what good will that do anyone, and especially yourself?
A personal opinion, about anything is something shared very personally within a consensual socialgroup, or if it is very radical and extreme; not at all.
I do share my opinions here, but to enlighten those who do not understand and do not accept, that certain truths are undeniable.
Plus, I want to wake up discussion, because I want to write about things many people do not wish to speak of, whether it be racism or such.
It doesnt only contribute to our own need to pass our opinions and thoughts, but it broadens our persepectives and thus leading us closer to understanding the world as it is.

But for those who know me, I ask you what am I really?

Some people however, are very inconsiderate, loudmouthed and all round loathesome; what makes them believe this behaviour is tolerable, accepted, attractive or appreciated?
Does this image their personality positively in any way? Does this give a goodperception of their hearts and minds?
-No, I dont think so.
It is very pityful and I cant stand such people, therefor I choose to keep myself away from them because they irritate and enrage me.
But do I act like an ass to them because of that?
No, even so it is better to ignore and be conscious about yourself, rather than others, because again; what good will it do if I sink down to their level?

See, most of these people, who dont realize the aftereffects of their mental and physical, worldy actions, never do, until it is too late.
One must take time at some part in their life to really think over the past and the present, to determine their future; because if you are still a stupid numbnut after the age of 20, you´ll probably stay one for the rest of your life.

I am neither a bad person on the inside or outside, but what we percieve with our eyes often dont make up for what is reality, you have to look beyond.
We all have darkness in our cores, but either you can understand it or you can deny it, if you deny it, then you are living in ignorance, and that will taint and show in both appearance and acting.
As for some people, it is very easy to see through whatever fasade they have, no matter how nice or cool, or even how ‘badass’ they try to be…they are weak both psycologically and physically.
Bad actors…
Cast your judgment upon me as you wish, I dont care.
If you have followed my blog for a while I hope you and I think on the same level, then you will understand me.

Im Tomio.

 

Paranormal Activity Review

Well, I just saw the movie Paranormal Activity, by myself in the dark ( with coke and crisps ofc )
To startoff this review, I wanna say that I had no high expectations on this movie, as well as doubts upon how scared I would be left after it.

Short plot summary:
The movie is about the couple Micah and katie who live in their big fancy house.
Turns out that katie is being followed by some sort of entity, so Micah purchases a camera to try to capture any ‘paranormal activity’ on film to see what is really going on.
They get a psychic to investigate and tells them that Katie is infact haunted by a demon feeding on negative energy, a being that cannot be espaced and will follow Katie wherever she goes.
As time goes by, more and more ghostly events take place until it all escalates into insanity and fear out of this world…

Just about everybody who has seen this movie has been totally freaked out, hype worldwide has been through the roof and this movie has at some times been declared the new ‘Blair Witch‘ of the 21st century.
I understand where these comments and rants come from, I must say that this movie actually manages to pull it off at times, but at fewer times it succeeds to scare than it utterly bores.

But lets go into the review:

What I find interesting, and I wonder if it can be called somewhat of a subplot; is the dilemma between Katie and Micah surrounding the horrific events occuring.
As the movie progresses, they float away to and fro from eachother; and I can not only relate to it but I feel sadness because they succeed with building up the ’sympathy bar’ very well.
Meaning, there isnt only the demonical horror presense but also the human emotional side that gives this movie more depth, as we get a front row view of their relationship.
This contribues to the many feelings that are mixed into this movie, and gives a good and very visual transcendance as the story goes, rom uplifting and bright, to very sad and dark.
Calm goes to stress.
This movie hits it off very well seeing as there is only 2 characters present and do all the work, they manage to convey the tension that grows throughout, with a sense of reality and feeling.
Good acting indeed!

Over the to actual horror:

Now, I am not saying I got scared, because believe it or not, I didnt get scared, I didnt even jump…
But I must say that I am impressed; it did manage to set the reality mood but also the horror mood; with the sounds, lights and other effects.
I give them that credit, it is a very well made film indeed.
Just about all the action happens at night, in the bedroom.
Pretty much 90 percent of the time it is only minor ‘hauntings’ to get things stirred up for the grande finale, but is it all really worth it?
I dont know really if they could have tried to make more night sequences with more action, if that would have made it all worth it in the seeing as the last 10 minutes probably overthrow the entire 90 percent of the time prior.
Then again, maybe the subtleties are good, sort of teasingly getting you on the edge of your seat and wanting more and more, I dont know but it didnt really work for me.
I would have liked to have seen more, more MORE!
Though I admit that some scenes, like the Oija Board scene was cool, not only because of the way it was made but also because it is the only ‘paranormal activity’ during the day.
-But I especially liked the part at around 1hour and 17minutes into the movie, where you can actually very clearly hear the demons voice in the hall as the lights turn on and off, and then at around 1hr18min you can just barely make out a dark shadow moving across the bedroom door.
Little details like that, I like alot!

As I said, this movie is more impressive effectswise than in actual horror, which is strange to say about a film with only $15000 in budget and no real visual means of either computer made FX or additional staff help.
Huh….

In conclusion:

Not being a real fan of horror movies, not because i dont like them and dont like getting scared, is because most of them fail to scare me and this movie is no different really…it just didnt scare me .
But that doesnt mean I dont like it, it was very good in other ways, as stated above; like acting, effects and reality.

Is this movie worth seeing?
Yes it is actually.
Maybe I didnt see it the right way? Alone in the dark…Maybe you are SUPPOSED to see it with somebody else or in a group of people because as a friend said; you get more scared when others around you get scared.
Well, first off I dont have nay friends that I think would want to see this alone with me, and second I dont have a girlfriend which I would findd the most ideal company to see this kind of movie with…but lets not fall into a discussion about my lovelife here, there is plenty of other posts for that.

Overall, and it feelslike I am repeating myself; but this movie was alright, I didnt get dissapointed in the way as I didnt like the movie at all, it was creepy I can give you that, but for my standards…it wasnt a jumper.
It is worth seeing once I think, and the second time you can just scroll through the night parts to both find the little details which are nice but also because they are the only parts worth seeing again.
As far has modern horror flicks go, this is a nice and different addition to the long list of depressing Hollywood horror movies of the past years…But will it go another decade until the movieindustry comes with film that really scares me?????
When???

I give this film 4 out of 5!

+ acting, effects, originality

- not enough horror sequences, not scary enough and….no nudity???? C’mon! A guy, his girl and a big freaking camera…hello???

-Just look at those milkers…omnomnom!

True Horror

I am about to watch the very critically acclamied horror/thriller Paranormal Activity by myself, here in my dark room!
There is very little that scares me, and I have more doubts about this film than eager, and if this film is as scary as the entire world seems to say…my expectations are very , very high.
-I´ll write a short review tomorrow!

I have said before, the only movie to ever really, really, REALLY scare me is The Grudge, and strangely enough, the American version, though the japanese original was equally terrifying.

-Just that sound alone is enough to traumatise anyone with nightmares for a year…

Dont forget to look behind your back… OMGZZXAAAHHH DONT LOOK BEHIND YOU !!!!!

Either way, when it comes to horrorfilms, you just gotta remember…it is only pictures on a screen, sounds from a speaker.
Nothing more, nothing less, than not real.
I feel I have pretty much overcome my fear of the dark and such, that used to traumatise me when I was younger, and so easily scared.
I actually went into my livingroom in the night, pitchblack and so silent I could only hear myself breathe…I was thinking long and hard in my mind…GHOSTS…DEMONS…Show yourselves…show yourselves…
Though I couldnt see shit around me I had my eyes wide open and was looking all around me.
-But nothing happened, not shit.
From that moment, I was no longer scared.

You just have to understand, reason and conclude just how far reality goes, whether it be horrofilms with ghosts and demons or even pure religion.
Does God exist? You can stand in a room and cry out for God as much as you wont…shit wont happen.
I can guarantee you that!

- Though this painting is nothing short of amazing, being the art lover as I am

However, reality can sometimes be ever so much worse than any movie.
Ever had the thought of dying all alone?
No family, no love, no money, home, no nothing?
One of my fears is being alone, having noone…ever!

Because let’s face it, things do under no circumstances stay the same for all eternity, the world is in constant motion and maybe in a few years ones family could be all gone; parents dead and siblings moved far away…
What if all youve got is yourself and no one to love or live for?
Nobody wants you and there is no chance for you to start your own family and pass on your legacy.

Imagine youself at 80 years old lying on your deathbed…think through your whole life…all that you have done…but you have been all alone…and you are still alone, you are the last in your bloodline…and then suddenly it all ends, your life is gone and so every trace of your existence.

To me that is true horror.

The Special Sorrow

Wow, probably the first friday where I am so stuffed and bored Im just gonna go straight to bed…
Too tired to play Metal Gear, too tired to watch a movie…too tired to do anything, really.

What to do this weekend:
-Record movie, one of my actors is sick though so this might have to be postpond until next weekend, however we might be able to film another flick if I can get my friend INZ to be cameraman.
-Write weekreports; 4 weekreports…shouldnt be too hard.
-Train on Sunday? I hope so…

As finale, I am getting my brand new IDcard on monday, so as soon as I do, I am going by my banks to fix money and a bankcard! PRONTO!

But I dont wanna leave my avid readers without any goods this Friday…so lets see…

Oh I read in the news not too long ago, that the leadsinger of Takida tried to commit suicide a few years back.
I think he said he slit his wrists up “but something went wrong so he had to call an ambulance“…
Okay, what could really go wrong? I would think in a suicide situation everything wrong is good…like if it bleeds too much thats good, because ya wanna die, right.
Or maybe his mom walked in on him or something, thinking he was masturbating and he didnt want to die in shame… anyways glad he didnt die otherwise he wouldnt have made the great love song “Curly Sue“.



Makes me think back to over a year ago, I got a call from my ex saying she’d cut up her wrists, and she even sent me a picture…it was really terrifying and so sad, because there was nothing I could do to help her, since she was in another city.
Later that day she was institutionalized for over a month :/

What drives and motivates a person so much that he/she considers suicide?
It is really sad, because mostly these people carry a great weight inside, such emotional and psycological pain.
One of my worst fears is psycological instability and depression, though I have felt many mild episodes of this, I cant begin to imagine how it is for some people who struggle through the whole of their lives.
Something or someone can so easily ruin another persons life and make them so utterly depressed and psycologically frail that nothing is worth living for… I recognize the feeling, and I know a couple who have that feeling everyday.
I guess that is why many people consort to physical pain rather than psycological, the pain goes away much faster.

I think people who go through many hardships in their lives grow stronger and gain more experience and wisdom in life.
You can sometimes really feel a persons heart and soul, when they have been through lifechanging happenings like great downtimes.
I have had my share, and I feel like I am way ahead in my life, for I dont take it for granted anymore, I am not a child and havnt been for a while I believe.
That is what I like in certain people though, the maturity of their innerself, and I do find that very attractive in girls, who are very mature deep within.
But still, they must have their free and colourful nature, in tune with reality, morals, ethics, thought and reason.

When I meet a girl, I can usually tell if they are special.
Certain girls have certain glows to them, an aura.
I need a girl with experience, wisdom and maturity; I cannot stress that enough.
It is hard to put into words exaclty what I mean…but then again…who cares, I will know when I find her.

YOU ARE NOT SPECIAL

Life is not a Highschool Musical

Got a weird gutfeeling today, I hate when that happens but Im not even gonna write why because then I´ll just think about it more.

Gotta fill my mind with good thoughts again!

This evening I attended my schools OpenHouse and spoke to plenty of younglings, telling about the media course and the school itself, which was very fun
I was actually supposed to stand by a table and talk about the studentcouncil but nobody was interested so…I decided to walk around instead, which was so much more worth it.
Sometimes it feels really cool being a senior student; everybody looks up to you and you feel very old and wise
Plus girl love seniors, right?
Nobody likes me, but thats the way it should be.
However, school here in Sweden is nothing like highschool in for example the states; no highschool musical or american pie, though it would be fun if it was like that.

So guys, before we graduate this year; we gotta fuck every girl of the alphabet in the school!
-Alright, just gotta find that X!

That’d be sweet XD

But really though, sometimes you just gotta sit down and relax when you are feeling your worst, like I did today when i got that bad feeling in my stomach.
Meditation around why you are feeling bad, on reason and reality is among the best you can do.
When you realize that in reality, nothing is constant, no feeling about worldy things last forever, because the world does not last forever.
In reality, what does small things matter after a while? We have to realize that life goes on and changes, we have to realize that the past is the past and should be left as such, if we really want to move on.
We shouldnt ponder about the past, do something about it rather then, than whine about it and letting it drag you down emotionally.
Think forward, not back.
Dont get stuck in the moment, live for tomorrow.

Learn to let go of what you are most afraid of losing, to find peace.
-Almost there.

Earlybird

Goin to bed a bit earlier tonight…
Got in the mail today my parcel to pick up my ID card at the taxoffice on Monday
-This time there wont be any failure…

I leave y’all with this entertaining clip from Sex and the City:

Haha, no but seriously thats not very nice;
You should shout something more like “Yatzy!“

Gnight!!!

Im Just an Internet Asshole

The internet, the cowardly faggots guise to act like a badass faggot.

A friend of mine commented on this loser guys video on Youtube; where this guys fat loser friends are doing MMA and backyard fighting and shit, litterally my friend wrote “ you guys blow, my sister could take you all down“.
Big deal? Pretty innocent really…
All of a sudden this guy, who btw is a big, fat ugly immigrante from mexico or something, goes all bananas and writes these long derogatory comments to my friend, with sexist slurs and mocking his martial arts, calling him a ballerina, among many things.

Haha, I think this was very funny so I just had to write my thoughts back to that fat loser guy; then he goes banans on me too and for the past hours we’ve been throwing back and forth several long swearing comments at eachother.
I find it all so hillarious because this guy is such a loser, his grammar and spelling is so awful but what is most fun is that I play the game taunting him racially and appearance wise.

-Im like ” no hablo español” and ” learn ingles, por favor“, haha.

To demonstrate what he wrote, here is an excerpt “ u lil bitch ho u aint nothing shit u think u tough cuz u on the internet but in real life u aint shit u come on over to my place i fuck u up the ass u like hat dont you fucking ballerina boy , lol ur mom happy u boy turned into a girl you be dancing with ur flips u aint nothing u fight u lose against my boys, pussy “
Now he is also spamming my videos writing “ I hope everybody knows youre a racist” just because I got into his ‘argument’ with my friend…urgh, I just write back “ immigrante!“.
I suppose by now most people know I am somewhat of a racist at times, but who isnt?
That comment was of little magnitude…
Yeah, sometimes it is okay to be an ass on the internet, if you GOTTA reply back an even bigger ass hole…
This guy…how can you take him seriously?       vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

But then again, maybe I shouldnt have replied at all?
I could have been the adult in this situaiton because apparently he is not

Then again, I dont usually use my ‘internet asshole’ powers to their full extent so this was just something to let some steam out…and it was goooood.
This blog doesnt count cuz this here be serious shit!